There comes a point in every creative project where the Startitis has worn off. I’m sure you are familiar with Startitis: that flush of excitement over a new idea, gathering supplies, beginning with abandon! I have serious problems with Startitis. My drawers and closets are filled with projects begun…many of them are knitting projects (I wonder why that is? Crochet I seem to get to the end of more frequently)…and often a painting or drawing languishes on the easel when Startitis has worn off. Such is the above charcoal of my youngest, begun oh, several months ago. I was excited about working in charcoal on this lovely paper-it goes on like velvet-and I loved working the face of my little girl. I had such hopes of documenting the process so I could show you how one of my charcoal drawings evolve…here’s the first photo I took:
Startitis begins to wane when problems arise. Something isn’t going so well. The eyes were giving me fits…I started over several times on that left eye, got frustrated, decided to “think about it a day or so” and that turned into several months. Yikes.
And so now, I’m in desperate need of Stick2itiveness. Endurance. Fortitude. Focus. Determination. I also have a lovely ripple blanket languishing in a basket in my living room. I did pick it up the other day and worked a row or two wondering why I hadn’t gotten to this, it’s so much fun! But holidaying and such demanded I leave it alone again, and there it sits.
Life is a lot like this for me. My creative life for sure is a record of “Ooh, I want to make that…oh, and that, ooh, and that too!” But even everyday life things have the first blush of startitis wear off and need stick2itiveness…laundry, cleaning the house, teaching, shuttling kids around, etc. Problems arise, or life happens, and whatever has been clicking along happily begins to get bogged down. When I face a new year, my temptation is to think of all the “new” things I’d like to accomplish or tackle in the New Year. This year, I think I shall resolve to do some “finishing”.
Our family has embarked on a new life of blood sugar checking, insulin shots, and carb counting. I think we are still in the startitis phase…at least, I’m still buoyed up by seeing how all this regimen is giving Maddie health and vitality. But we have hit some rough patches…days where Maddie and I both are needing encouragement to keep up the routine. On these days we need all the endurance and stick2itiveness we can muster. One thing I know well about myself, is that I can very quickly use up all my own supply of stick2itiveness. I have to look to Someone Else and lean on loved ones near me to find the strength to see something to its end. This too, I am resolving to be better about in 2010: abiding and receiving…abiding in a Strength that is not my own and receiving help from others who offer.
I’m thankful that this Life is not all up to me. Maybe my creative projects are…although actually I have received help and endurance for those things as well! I just have to be open to it. So, welcome 2010…come what may: exciting starts, languishing endeavors, pushing forward to the end; I face what You have for me with gladness and I’m hoping for an extra dose of Stick2itiveness.