Here it is…that ache so familiar…a longing for something other, right here at the beginning of December. It comes to me in the early hours just as the sky outside my studio window begins to glow. It comes as I pull out decorations, some as old as my husband and I have been married, 34 years. And that many years full of memories and goodness and hardship and grace. Yes, always grace.
It comes in the music of the seasons, in silent-night notes wafting through the house, in tinsel-y tunes as I drive around shopping, in choral glories as I play favorite CD’s of holiday grandeur. The ache fills my heart and I welcome it, expand to breathe it in, though it is tinged with not-a-little sadness. This ache I have recognized for years as the song of my true Home. It is as if Advent opens up a chasm in the heavens and I can hear more clearly what angels must hear all the time…whispers of enduring Love, promises of a King who accompanies us in every moment, a liquid grace that is always running through my days but somehow here at Advent, I hear it louder, stronger. Yet still…it can be hidden.
At times I have to dig for it behind the clamour of so much dis-ease in our society. Sometimes the glitz and pull of holiday merry-making veils the resounding splendor of a King’s arrival in my heart. And far too often the mess and clutter of my own heart leaves no room for the tiny babe to rest His head.
This day I will dive into the clutter of a merry-making studio and make some space for whatever this Advent holds for me. Could this be the “making” I do this month? The making of “room”, the clearing of space to listen and to see, the full breathing in of the expanse of grace? Could this be the work of my hands this season?
May it be so, in my life and in yours. Make room. Make space for Light to dwell, for Hope to flourish, for grace to abound. Keep making…❤️
13 thoughts on “The Ache of Advent”
Thank you for this, Jennifer. We need Hop, as our world seems so full of sadness now.
Meant to say Hope.
There truly is a lot of sadness Rose. I’m glad we can remind each other how to make room for hope and joy! Wishing you blessings today! -Jennifer
Beautiful words. I very much share the sentiments you’ve so beautifully expressed. ❤️
Advent blessings to you Robyn in all you do this season! Love, Jennifer
Thank you Jennifer for your beautiful description of God’s “liquid grace” and your lovely sketch of being held by Christ. Just what I needed today as I consider new creative paths. Thank you for sharing your Advent journey!
You are welcome Deborah! May you receive blessings in all your creative work this season and as you set down your paintbrushes to make room for Him. -Jennifer
What a kind passage from your lips! I hear you.❤️
Thank you Jeannie! I hope you are having a beautiful advent season! -Jennifer
Beautiful sentiments, Jennifer. In this busy time, I think you for the reminder!
You are so welcome Nancy! Merry Christmas to you! -Jennifer
The final drawing, just beautiful! I love how you envision Emmanuel, God with us. Thank you for sharing that.
Thank you Annette! I’m sorry I didn’t see your comment sooner! I am so glad we are friends across the waters, and I do so look forward to seeing your beautiful artwork on IG! Have a blessed day! Love, Jennifer